Really, I will not surprise if 1 day I announce I am bankrupt.

I just sign my SnP. Suddenly all my money gone. Actually I got think about using all my money to change a house is the right decision? Just a guy with age 24 has to afford car loan and house loan? Actually I keep telling myself and people that buy a house is not really a burden. Because what I need to do is paid the 10% of the house, then make the loan period be longer, then use the rent money to cover the installment. Now I think I am wrong, a lot of expenses are unexpected. At the day I decide to buy house, I already look for ppl to rent my house and at least some of my friends say ok. But now since my S&P delay, so my friends cannot confirm to me already because of they also need to give notice to the house owner that they rent now. I am sorry to some of them because they already give notice to their owner and now they need to find another place to rent.

Then I also don expect the lawyer fee is so expensive. Since what I buy is completed and second hand house, then I need to pay the SnP fee. What I mean is if I buy an uncompleted house, there may be have a chance that developer will pay the SnP to the buyer. But I am not.

Then the furniture, I always think that I buy a house with empty/little furniture is ok. But now I just know that little furniture already can cost you a lot. First, At least I need to have a bed, bed is important for human. Is the main furniture to let u rest, sleep or enjoy. Usually human will have 1/3 life is spend on bed. So I decide to buy a good bed and may sleep on it on me else’s of life.... So, After I doing research, a bed may cost me rm2000-3000. Then the washing machine, refrigerator.... all needs money. The little furniture may cost me rm10k already...

Really, I will not surprise if 1 day I announce I am bankrupt.

It's complicated...

It's complicated. I have some argued with one of my close friends this few days. Actually at first is a small thing, he make me need to pay more rm150 or maybe less to credit card. That time I am really angry because I am short of money with other duty. So I am mad about it and I do not talk to him for about 3 days. Although at the end we look like become friend again, sometimes I feel he still keep that in mind. I believe I already act apologize to him but he look like do not care about it. This make me also become mad because of his attitude now. It is obviously he make the fault first but now looks like I am wrong. He never knows it is how hard I go and collect the money to pay the bills. I aware that I maybe act so much in those 3 days but it oledi 2 weeks pass away and he still looks like that. This make me feel very bad, maybe I need to lose this friend.

Keep Fit Plan

Today I start to keep fit. I try to eat few and go to gym. That’s a hard thing. Usually I take economic rice for lunch. So I take less this afternoon but when I feel hungry at about 3pm. It is a really hard time for me. I never know how I can eat 1 meal per day only last time. Maybe I already old so cannot act like last time… now anxious try to get food. Working so hard but cannot enjoy it…. What for?? And my relish is eating…. Now I am worry about my fit plan oledi… hehe..