Dear May
I went to TCGM today. I don know whether my job is the main factor to make us breakup, but I am sure this TCGM client is part of the reasons. I put so much efforts in this client until I don care about u and the incident. This was still my hardest pain in my heart. So really, I don prefer to go to this client side. It refreshes my memories and that time I just thought about working, and now I know that you are the most important one. When TCGM people appreciated my hardwork in their project and recommended TCGS ( M for Malaysia, S for Singapore) to accept my company as their next vendor, I really want to tell my boss or TCGM people that this make me lose my lover forever…

Just now I attended my company’s gathering. My company just organized a night for all the company staffs. A lot of people brough their gf or wife to come. When I saw those people who came with couple made me hurt more. And the location of this gathering was pizza hut. Actually I don want to attend already when I know the location is pizza hut. But because boss kept on asking me to go, I was forced to attend it. I never knew eating pizza was so hard for me. Pizza that without you, cannot delight me anymore. Although I look like enjoying the meal, but actually my heart was bleeding. But I still needed to pretend. Simply because I am the one who can make the people surrounding happy. Maybe I really have the talent of being a clown

After the dinner, we went to watch “forbidden Kingdom”. This was part of the gathering packages and because not to be anti social, I joined. But in the middle of movie, I couldnt bear. I kept on reminding those movies that I used to watch with you. Especially the movie “David” that we watched in Pavilian since I was in Pavilian that time. You never knew now I even don want to go Pavilian for lunch or any purposes because for me it recalled a lot of memories. I even don want to go to TGI Friday that floor because It was the last place we hung around…

After movie I went to have a drink with my coli again. The quantity of wine and beer I drank this few days was even more than the quantity of wine and beer for the past 25 years. Due to environmental issue, I opened my last pack of Kent Neo. Most of the cigarettes were given to my coli. My feeling was bad when seeing they took my Kent Neo but I also felt happy because this was the last pack. I did not know how could I get back to home but I knew that beer and cigarettes cannot reduce my pain already. When I can just forget you and start a new life?