Dear May,
I never thought I will write 2 letter to you in 1 day. I never know I got so many things want to tell you. Maybe when I lost the chance to tell you, then just realize that I got so many things want to let you know...

People tell me that I will recover from you 1 day. I also believe that. I just don know when is the day. People tell me that try to chase other gals, I try to on my focus on them but look like I am fail. You are my only now. I don know this situation will remain until when, but I believe one of my friend say that, "until 1 day I will collect all the broken pics of my heart, and store it in a virtual box, put it in the deepest edge of my heart. then I use the remain of my heart to chase another gal. If I am lucky, I can don touch the box until I die, else we both don know what will happen....I believe what he tell me and I believe I am trying to collect the pics of my heart now. This process is very diffcult for me. I think that, The most diffcult thing for me now is I break
my heart myself, then I need to recover it myself again......

People tell me that maybe I not love you, just because of I cannot wake up from the pain being you dump or you got partner before me. I don know whether they are true or not. But at least I don feel this feeling from other gal. I rather believe this is love. People also tell me I am sad because I feel I am sorry to you. I agree with them. I really feel sorry to you. But I know that the feel that I feel from you not only sorry. If only sorry then I should be just find a way to say sorry, but not like the situation I face now......