Dear May,I packed all your things this early morning. This even included the box that you bought for me during 2006's christmas. I cannot let those things keep on dominating my mind. I have also stopped making stars because I felt that I couldn’t afford to continue like this. Even with 999 stars, I know you will not give me back a chance. This morning when I was looking at the self made stars, I couldn’t control myself to throw it. I put so much effort in making the stars but on another hand I threw them away outside the window this morning. I hope DBKL will not find me tonite. But really, After throwing, I regretted again. Those are all my sincerities but I just threw them like rubbish.....

This morning I tried to change my look and style. I don want people to know I am so upset. I wore the clothes that I dislike with my spec now. I could still remember you kept on telling me to wear something that look younger. Although now maybe you cannot have a look on it, But at least I am doing it. My coli all were surprised by my look.... I really hope the change of Style and look will make me happier

I saw someone was viewing my profile in friendster. His name is aston. I believe that he is your bf since he is the only one that appears on your friendster feature friends list that viewed me. I don know how I feel now...... I hope I am wrong but my sixth sense tells me is correct. I refuse to think so much but I cannot control myself. I hate my self......

I directly booked the ticket to Sarawak. Luckly the ticket was cheap. Due to the works and lot problems, I only can back on17 May. My coli J and K will go back with me. They kept wanting to have a look on my hometown although I have told hem there is nothing special. At the moment I booked the ticket, I just cannot control myself to think about you, because you used to tell me that u want to back Sarawak with me last time. I cannot control my tears again. I never know I am such a person. Can cry so much 1. I think the drops of my tear in these 2 weeks are more than whole life of mine.....