Dear May,
I never expect you online now. Maybe you onduty today. Many works to be done? Maybe just want to online and chat with your bf? I don know. But I saw your msn title change to "My Damn Cool Hubby.." Again... I hurt again. Maybe I cannot sleep again. Why tomorrow is a holiday? Can I spend the time alone? I don know. But I will go to R place again. else I will not know what I will do and what I will be......

I just cannot delete your msn.... when can I really delete your msn? When can I forgot you? When can I forgive myself?

R say he delay the China trip to July, I feel good when I heard about that, mean he can accompany me until July lo. I feel good and direct decide that tonight meal on me. He tell me my action delight him. Maybe? But actually I just want to make other people happy. People tell me that make other happy, you will also happy. Maybe I still cannot feel the happiness, but I hope all of my friends, coli and you happy.

Hope I can recover from you before R go to China. Hope I can release myself. Hope everything will be good. Hope my hope all can become true...