Dear May,
Sat morning again, so the hard time comes again. I will think about u and ur bf. Actually I take a lot of work back home do but I cannot start on it. I just no mood does. I think I will go to R house and pass my weekend with him. I start worry I don know how to pass my weekend when he go to China. He will go to China at second week of June. Still got about 2 months time to go. I hope I can recover from your pain that time. But, I believe, It is impossible since every day have something that remind me about you. I try not to think about it but mind is not control by me.

Checked your Friendster and see you delete my comment. You never know that’s how pain to me. I start hate myself why I go and see your Friendster. The comment that your bf send to you also make me upset and hurt. I believe you two will have a happy weekend and I wish you will happy also. I start thinking where you will go, where that guy live, where I can meet you. I really have a mind that wants to go your house and see whether that guy treat you good or not. R and ED keep on tell me let it go and I want to let you know that I really want to let it go but my heart is not control by my brain. I never know when I can stop updating this blog. I think the day I don update this blog is the day I totally forgot you….But when is the days? Will the day come?