Dear May,
I noticed that u have added few photos in your friendster again. you went to Titiwangsa and you cut your hair. I could still remember we used to go to titiwangsa together but that time you din’t look as happy like this. Is this bf really treating you that good? make you really happy like that. I don know. I hope you are happy but I will be happier if you can stay happiness with me. But look like is impossible oledi. Maybe 4 years really can make people lost romantic and caring...

I went out to have a drink last nite. I thought beer or wine can let me forgot something, but look like no. Chivas, Kent Neo all couldn’t make me to forget you. Especially Kent Neo, when I was smoking, I felt like getting you back although i remembered that u used to say if I smoke, then you will leave me. This make me keep on smoking but at the same time reminded me stop it. Dilemma. I also started to worry when I finish them because seems cannot get this brand from normal place. But on other hand I also hoped just to finish this pack so I will not smoke again. I never know you can influence me so much.I really hope I got the chance to chase you back but because of your photo, I know it is impossible oledi. Every nite I’m blaming myself until fall asleep.... I really don know when I can stop this kind of action... maybe forever? I never know....