Dear May,
I don sleep whole nite and due to R's work, we need to wake up at 6am. I sent ED to Lrt and start my journey to a client that in shah alam. My heart really pain and I don know how I reach shah alam. The appointment is at 9.30am but I arrive at 7am. No doubt on this, this 2 hour use to refresh my memories that have you....
I work like a zombie in my office. I believe my coli already know something happen on me. I cannot eat well, sleep well, perform well. I just tell them I am sick but I think they all know the fact is not that easy. haiz... who care now. Last time I love to stay with my coli and I really think I find a work that is belong to me. I love spent my time with them than spent with you. But now, I find that I am wrong. I agree they can give me something new because last time I never work with a big group like this. But that happniess are just illusion. Without you, I never have mood to work and chit chat with my coli. I really have a high expectation on this job last time but now, I don care. If not really I have something that I need to handle now, I will direct go back Sarawak and cry in my mother arm. I don know I am weak like this...Now my msn title is "Never weak before, Never become strong. Never become Loser, How can become a Winner?"
I try to recover from your pain and I hope I can be strong, So I refuse ED's request to stay at my house tonite. I want to stay alone. I need to overcome this. I cannot ask my friend keep on helping me. haiz... hope tonite I can sleep and have self control not to msg you...